I think the header says it all. I know things have been hard on everyone. I truly wish you all the best for 2009. I had high hopes for this year. Emphasis on had. Now I feel like my world is crashing down. Last year started out for crap and ended pretty good, but I don't know if I can truly take another year like that. I mean, I was able to overcome my obsticles as they were. I just don't know how it's going to happen this time around.

I have complete faith in those around me. I trust my man to no end. He has always provided for me in the past no matter what. It's just some part of me is, well, scared out of my mind. I don't know what we are going to do, or where we are going to go. I don't have anyone or anywhere to turn to in this situation. Most everyone I know is trying to hold their own too. Plus I don't want to be a burden on anyone.

Ok I know I haven't come out and said it yet. It's just hard, you know. Well here it goes. My man got laid off from his job about a month ago. A couple days ago we were told to move out of our house. So, there it is. For the first time in my entire life, I may be homeless. Now I have confidence that we will get another place. What scares me is when and where. I've lived in this same house for almost 7 years now. Change is hard. Change is scary.

So many questions roll through my mind now. Are we going to be ok? What does this mean for us? Am I a failure? Is this my fault? If our funds have grown so tight that we are losing our house, will we have enough to eat? Yes, I don't know what to do. I've always been way better off than most of my friends and family. There is noone out there that can help. If there was I don't even know that I'd ask. I'm so used to being the person that helps not the one that asks.

I will ask for one thing though. Please keep us in your prayers. I could use that.

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